Less than a year!

OUR wedding will be in 359 days. Even though it seems like forever from now, it's actually coming up really fast. In less than a year, Brian and I will say our vows in front of our family and friends, and most importantly God. I am so blessed to have Brian as my soul mate, best friend, and partner for life. He is my support, my rock, my everything. When he comes home from work, whether it's been a long trip, or just a day at the EC shop, I get butterflies everytime I see him. He is amazing. He is so strong, mentally and physically. He is so sensitive to me, and is an incredible man. He is everything I have ever imagined in my prince charming. I sometimes wonder how it is that God blessed me with such a man that most women only dream of.

I hope that I am everything that he has ever wanted in a wife. I know I struggle at being a homemaker sometimes, and I know that I have disappointed him on numerous occasions. I absolutlely hate to clean, especially the dishes. I've quit school, I'm lazy, I have a plethera of flaws, more than I'd like to admit. The crazy thing is, Brian accepts them, and continues to encourage me to change for the better, not for him, not for any other person besides myself. I am one to not have much self confidence. I often put myself down, laugh at my embarrassing moments, and overthink everything I do. Brian perks me up, makes me feel like I have a purpose, and encourages me to do the best I can. He is definetely the man for me, no questions about it. He's my better half.

Even though we've dedicated our lives to each other already, we will be legally married and will be planning a family by that time. Brian would like to wait around 3 years after we're married to start a family. He thinks giving us that time to adjust to the married life would help us in starting a family. Personally, I think he is CRAZY!!! I will be 24 when we get married, Brian will be 25. We've been together for almost 7 years. We are practically married! We live together, we've gone through emotional and physical struggles together that most couples NEVER have to experience. So 3 years after we get married I will be 27, and he will be 28. That's a little too late to start having kids. I want to be at least 26 by the time we have our first child, and I'd idealy like to have each child 2 years apart. Which would make me 30 by the time we have our last child, if we have 3. As long as I have kids before 35, I will be happy. I want 4 kids, and he wants 2. Somewhere we will compromise, hopefully at 3!!  Even though it sounds like I want alot of control in these issues, I believe that whatever our king has planned for us in the future, will be just fine with me. I will blessed, no matter what happens.

I figured that I'd post something new, something that's been on my mind, and not a detailed list of the happenings in my life!

I hope everyone had a blessed day, and that this Halloween weekend is very SPOOKY :) ok, really though, I hope its fun with all of the festivities, or for my best friend, Lesley, the opening of duck season. ♥

For Now & God Bless, *Amber*