Well I hope not. This past week has been a very stressfull week. I haven't been this stressed since the week of our engagement party, back in July.
Brian has been in West Virginia for over 4 weeks now. It's been a trying 4 weeks. When we both decided it would be a wonderful opportunity for him, we knew the backlashes of him being gone for a few weeks. Well a few weeks has turned into 2 months. He most likely will not be back in Texas until mid-October. Ever since he left, I have taken in surprisingly well, while he has taken in surprisingly hard. He is constantly saying that he misses my touch...something that I didn't really think of missing until he said it. Of course he misses other things, like hugs, and kisses, but he also said that he misses my smell, which to me, is so heart-warming. He misses the little things about being gone.
He's extremely homesick and this past week has shown me all too well. We've been emailing each other back and forth almost on a daily basis. But last night was one of the toughest nights so far. We argued, and we both said words we shouldn't have. I was at a retirement party at his work shop here in EC, and he was pretty upset that he couldn't be there with me. While at the party he called, and wanted to talk. I didn't want to be rude, seeing that the owner of FESCO was at the party, so I told Brian that I would talk to him at a more appropriate time. He was really tired and stressed and was ready to go to bed, so he wanted to talk then. I got frustrated.
We don't get to talk much, but it always seems that when Brian calls, its never a good time. I'm in the bathroom, I'm cooking and have filthy hands, I'm at a gathering and don't want to be rude, etc. It hit me last night and today after a sleepless night, that I needed to drop everything for him and talk to him.He misses home, he is in a place a thousand miles away, and knows no one, by himself, working nonstop, without a day off in 4 weeks. He's miserable, he's tired, he wants to be home where he knows he is going to be taken care of.
So today, I told myself to give up & stop everything that I'm doing when he calls, because talking to my future husband is more important than anything else. I miss him terribly, and want him home as well, and I hate knowing that he hates where he is at. I want to jump on a plane and just go give him a hug.
Tomorrow I'm supposed to be getting something from him. I have NO idea what it is, but its from him, and I'm sure I will love it. I can't wait to see it, only problem is, I know I will cry my eyes out as soon as I get it.
On another note, I drove into Houston today to try on Bridal Gowns with my Maid of Honor, Lesley, and a bridesmaid, Lauren. Both of which I've know for over 10 years, both of which I graduated high school, and have amazing memories with.
Dress shopping for me is difficult, being the size I am and the world we live in, a plus size woman CAN NOT try much on at a Bridal Shop. This place was HIGHLY disappointing. They basically told me up front that I can try on whatever I want, however, the sizes are going to be 2 sizes too small for me. Which meant that if I was a size 12 (HAHA) then I would have to try on a size 14...hmmm let me think...THATS REDICULOUS! Needless to say, I tried on maybe 5 dresses, liked NONE of them, and then the manager pushed us out. However, I did get to see some bridesmaids dresses on Lauren, and we ultimately picked a bridesmaid dress. Which is AWESOME because now I don't have to stress about pleasing everyone in the bridal party. It is what it is...and it's cute!
Well, I'm going to try to get some much needed sleep, craft & clean tomorrow while I wait for my package, and hopefully get some much need landscaping done to my house tomorrow evening. Have a wonderful rest of the weekend, and please don't stress, because IT'S NOT WORTH YOUR TIME!
For Now & God Bless, *Amber*
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